Hitting the Brick Wall.

So part of the reason that I undertook creating music as my senior project was because I generally failed to see anything through. I start a project with a lot of enthusiasm and energy, and as time goes on all that energy diminishes and my hopes of completing what it was I wanted to do dissolve. Eventually I stop altogether and whatever it was I was attempting to do joins all the other incomplete projects I started and never finished. The same is true of songs, before I started my project I had many song parts, and I tried to develop full songs, but with time the song was simply put away and was never looked at again. Well that’s sort of where I am with my project now. At first I was extremely energetic about my project, and now I feel like what I want to do simply isn’t going to happen and that my project will be a failure. I understood that I was undertaking a large project when I started, or at least I thought I did, but now we are a mere 3 months away from graduation and it feels like I still have nothing to show, no results or product that I can say “I did that” or that I can be proud of. Yes, I have learned a significant amount of basic music theory, but that still doesn’t feel like enough. I wanted to have recorded songs as a finished product, and that is still what I want, but I feel like with the amount of time I won’t be able to produce something I can be really proud of. It feels like I hit the brick wall, but regardless of that I will still struggle on to write and record my music.

Project Inquiries

So I have come to the part of my project where I am beginning to question whether or not I can actually accomplish what it is I want to do. I want to record my own alternative music, however that requires more than just a guitar. I can record Bass parts on my own as well, but the problem occurs when drums and vocals get involved. I have no way of recording drum parts. I have a digital recorder and I could try to mess around with different recording methods and techniques to get better drum quality, but as of now the drums are simply too loud for my recorder. The best solution I see is to get an electric drum set and plug that directly into the computer and record from there, but an electric drum set cost money that I certainly don’t have. The second problem I face is vocals, I’d like to have vocals to my music, but I can’t sing and I know no one who can. Also I struggle to put music to lyrics and lyrics to music. Hopefully the oncoming creativity week in which I will be participating in music composition can help me learn how to do that.

Panel of Advisers

As part of the senior project I am required to have a panel of advisers consisting of four people. So far I have filled two of the four positions. My first panel member is my guitar instructor, Paul Nichols. Paul has studied music theory, has played the guitar since the age of three, and has been a part of and toured with various rock, metal, and all sorts of other bands. My second panel member is my mentor, Tyrone Hill. Unfortunately, I don’t know much about Tyrone’s credentials other than the fact that he has worked with music production software for some time and has offered to help me in my recording process. The third panel member is supposed to be a member of the Chinquapin Board of Directors, and I am still working with Bridget Anderson (Chinquapin Director of Development) to find a board member willing to assist me in my project. The last member is supposed to be an expert in the field, but I don’t really know any experts in the field. I was thinking of asking Paul if he knew anyone who could help, but as of now I have yet to come up with anyone for that position.

What's been going on.

So I have spent every Saturday in the month of January attending free recording workshops at Guitar Center in Westheimer. The workshops were an extremely refreshing experience for me in two ways. First, they allowed me to learn much more about actually recording and editing your music then I probably would have learned by just trial and error, but they also gave me a new spirit and life. For a while I had felt as if my project was almost hopeless. I felt like I had neither the musical knowledge and skill or the experience with recording and editing songs to produce something I could truly be proud of by the end of the year, and although I realize that the task ahead of me is an extremely long and difficult one I feel more excited and invigorated now than ever. The workshops showed me that with a bit of ingenuity and with a lot of time, effort, and devotion that anyone could produce a song of pretty good quality using a program like garageband, and that a thousand dollar studio isn’t necessary to get some good audio quality, although I’m sure it helps. Mainly the class emphasized using different equipment and programs to get the most out of your recordings, and I’m extremely happy that I decided to attend because there was a lot of helpful and useful information offered up by the instructor. So aside from studying music theory in my “the complete idiot’s guide to music theory” book that is what I’ve been doing this past month.

Reflections

Was I better now than I was yesterday?

Yes, before I simply left everything to tomorrow or let myself stop doing something because things got too hectic for me to manage everything. What I have learned throughout the semester is that you cannot allow yourself to stop doing something. Get in a habit of doing something everyday, even if it’s just for 5 minutes and continue to do it everyday, and above all do not allow yourself to stop just because you feel stressed on time. If you stop one day, then soon your stop the day after, and pretty soon you’ll stop doing it altogether. I’ve allowed this to happen to many times. I may not know much more about music theory or composition now than I did in August, but I at least know that in order to truly learn these subjects and take my knowledge to the next level I have to practice at it every day. Now that I have learned that I can start on the road to knowledge of Music Theory and Composition, and although I may have to take baby steps to get where I want to be, baby steps are much better than not moving at all.

Road Bumps

Ok. I’ll admit it, I’m a bit behind. But, hopefully once I’m finished with college applications I’ll have much more time on my hands to focus on my project. As of now, I haven’t done much sitting and writing or recording and I’ve still yet to find a computer music software program. But, I have had time to play around and fiddle with some concepts and ideas on the guitar more and although I haven’t developed any of my songs much I now have song material to work with. I still need to do more research however and I’ll have to spend a lot of my remaining time doing research.

TEDx Youth day

So I recently gave a TED style talk at the Kinkaid school of Houston as part of TEDx Youth day, and it was suggested to me that I write a reflection on the experience and post it to my blog. At first I was ridiculously nervous; I had no idea what I was going to say about music, or how I was going to say it, but I still had plenty of time so I let the TEDx talk sink to the back of my brain. It wasn’t until about two week s before I was scheduled to give the speech that I really started work on it, and this was because I was leaving to Washington D.C. the following week. But, I eventually came up with what I wanted to be my message and from there it was just a matter or fleshing it out. My central message was that people should openly pursue their interest and strive to learn about them so that they can do more with their interest. But, at the same time people should still have a playful, curious and whimsical attitude towards their learning because often times simply playing with something leads to innovation.
The experience itself was very interesting. During the dress rehearsal I felt extremely nervous and was stumbling through my sentences. However, being up in front of the audience the day of was actually nice. It felt good for me to talk about something I cared about and for an audience of people to listen to what I had to say. I no longer felt nervous; I was comfortable in front of the crowd. All in all it was a great experience and I’m very happy that I was selected to participate in the event.

Hopefully I'll be able to provide a link to the viedo once it is available on Youtube. But, if you would like to search for it it will be available at the TEDx Youth Day's Youtube channel.